January 14, 2004
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I drove back up to Berkeley today and it wasn’t a bad drive at all. I took the 99 as usual and basically blazed through it doing 90 the majority of the way. I got into Berkeley just before they shut down a part of the 580, which had traffic backed up to the Bay Bridge. That felt nice to finally catch a break!
I reorganized my room tonight; I moved my heavy-ass bed to where my computer desk was and basically flipped the whole room around. I have space to do my yoga and exercise routine now, so I like it. I brought a container full of clothes home to store in my walk-in at home, but I also did some shopping while I was down there and now my closet is full again, ugh. I’m running out of closet space, and after my trip to Hong Kong in February, I just know that I won’t have any space left, ah well.
I went to visit some friends at UCLA Monday night. It was like a mini high school reunion, hehe, it was really nice to just sit and reminisce with each other about high school again. High school was just so simple and easy, ugh, too bad we can’t all go back to those oblivious times.
So it seems that this hasn’t exactly been the season for love. A handful of my friends have apparently had to endure difficult break-ups with their significant others. Though it’s good to know that I’m not alone, this particular feeling of emptiness and solitude is one thing that I would never wish on anyone, well, maybe if they were on my blacklist, but you’d have to try really hard to get on that, but I digress. I wish there was something that I can do to eliminate this, for lack of a better word, sucky feeling. Although my wound is still pretty fresh and raw, I have nonetheless been forced to move on, and I know it was for the better. I drowned myself in Sarah McLachlan a lot, but finally, I just had to wake up and realize that there’s life after love, and more importantly, there’s love still to be found after it’s all said and done. So many wonderful people have come back into my life that I never really took the opportunity to get to know before, and now, I’m richer for it. To Sebastian: you’re such a wonderful boi and you deserve only the best! Be strong and know that your friends are always here for you. You’ve no idea how much you’ve brightened my world, and I can only hope I can return the favor somehow. To Arnold: Go listen to Sarah McLachlan’s Time off of her album Afterglow! It’s the SHIET and it helped me a lot. Just remember, you’re growing from this experience, and you’ll only become more aware of what you want. Time heals all my friend.
Hmmm…I’m gonna go to sleep now, I had difficulty sleeping down in SoCal–I would wake up at like 6am or so, how crazy is that?! Whatever, I think I’ll go buy my books tomorrow. It’s scheduled to rain, but hopefully it won’t rain too hard.
