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  • …Chicago…

    No, not the musical, but the city! I’m in Chicago right now on a brief vacation from it all and it’s been interesting to say the least…

    I can’t really write much about my trip right now, but as a reminder to myself, here’s some stuff that I’ll address once I get back to the bay area:

    - racism and segregation
    - Chicago is freakin’ HUGE!
    - the Magnificent Mile
    - kids sizes ROCKS!
    - short hair SUCKS!
    - SOOOO MUCH FOOD!!!
    - gentrification of Chinatown

    I’ll add more to the list later on, but this is some of the stuff I encountered on just my first day…

  • OMFG! I’m FINALLY DONE with my honors thesis! This morning, I gave birth to a 50 page honors thesis in which I went through a year of labor for, and now…

    LIFE BEGINS!!!

    I’m so freakin’ jazzed now that I’m officially done with college. There so much I’ve wanted to do, and now, I can finally do it because I don’t have to worry about homework or papers to write anymore. Yes, the world is my oyster and I love seafood! HAHA!

    So I’ve been compiling this list of things that I wanted to do post-college. Here’s some of it:

    Reading: I’ve wanted to dive into so many books for leisure, but never really had the time for it until now. I’ve been buying up books like mad in the hopes that this day would finally come, and now that it has, it’s gonna be Reading Rainbow all over again, hehe.

    Organize my room: who wants to go to IKEA with me?! LOL, actually, there’s this really cute little store in the Haight that I really like. I’m gonna pick up some stuff and try my luck with interior design. My room is still so bare and boring, and that just won’t do with me. They’re all just so plain and white, and we all know that I need color in my life, lol. Hmm, maybe I’ll view some old episodes of Queer Eye to see if I can pick up some nifty ideas about jazzing up my room. Any suggestions?

    Non-profit work: I’ve been gone from the non-profit world far too long. The activist inside of my is itching to get out and back into the thick of things. Perhaps I’ll join the Board at LYRIC again, perhaps it’s about time I get involved with GAPA now that I’m living in the City. Hmm, the possibilities are endless–who’ll have me? Who needs help??? :D

    Gym: I finally got a gym membership at 24 Hour Fitness and I’ve been going consistently, but not consistently enough. I’ve been going about 3-4 times a week, but I need to be more disciplined about it all. I need to gain weight darn it! Give me protein shakes or give me…aw fudge, just give me the protein shakes. My life’s just starting, I don’t want death yet, lol…

    Film: I really had a lot of fun when I was making films. I’ve been jotting down ideas and issues that I wanted to address via film and I think it’s about time I put those ideas on screen. The world of film is a wonderful medium for activism, and it’s time to return to my roots as an angry gay Asian man! Who wants to be in my next film???

    Traveling: Ok, so I didn’t wait until college ended to start up on my traveling, but now I can travel so much more, hehe! Here’s what’s in store for the rest of the year:
    - October: Singapore
    - November: LA, Bangkok, Phuket, Singapore, Taipei
    - December: Toronto? New York? Hong Kong?
    WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Yay for traveling!

    Shopping: I’ve been holding back from shopping for new gadgets and gizmos because the ones I have now are still in great condition, but being the technophile that I am, I’m starting to get antsy about some things that I really want. Here are some of the things that I’m thinking of purchasing in the very near future, tell me what you think:
    - a new iPod: either the Shuffle or the Mini–I like the size of the Shuffle though because it’s convenient for working out.
    - Canon IXY: I should have bought this when I was in Akihibara because it was really cheap, but darn my camera for still working. The strap recently broke on my current camera though, does that justify buying a new one? It’s also clunky and big, I need something more sleek and nifty.

    Cooking: I have a freakin’ kitchen now! You’d better believe I’m looking forward to finally cooking for myself instead of eating out all the darn time! I can’t wait to experiment with all the cook books I’m accumulated in the past couple of years, haha! Dinner at my place! No worries, I’ve got a 10-cup rice cooker, there’s plenty of rice for all!!

    Yes, the new chapter is beginning and…

    I’M SOOOOOOOO READY!!!!

  • I met with my thesis advisor today thinking that I was almost done with my paper, that he’d just see that I had covered a lot of material and then just let me go, but I was sooooo wrong! Ugh, I’ve written 22 pages and I’ve just BARELY covered everything that I need to cover. This is becoming such a pain in the arse! I wish I hadn’t chosen to do an honors thesis, FUDGE!

    I’m also irritated with my roommates, darn straight people. They got into yet another fight and started yelling at each other, slamming doors, running up and down the stairs, etc. ALL AT 5 IN THE FREAKIN’ MORNING! WTF?! Ugh, I soooo felt like one of those kids that has an abusive parent who beats up on the other parent when the fight was going on, wishing I wasn’t there the whole time as I hid in my room. Argh, crazy straight people!

    Yay for rice and my rice cooker, I’ve made dinner the past 3 nights in a row, go me! I’m totally getting into the whole being domestic scene, haha!

    …back to the stupid paper…

  • …damn papers…

    …damn, my life is sooooo in flux right now. I can’t seem to really think about anything else until I get this stupid honors thesis done; argh, what an uber pain in the ass!

    So my time is quickly running out and I still haven’t finished my honors thesis yet. My room is still in disarray, and my friends are coming to visit in just a week’s time. Shit, I hope I get everything together soon! I sooooo can’t wait until I finish this damn paper. I still don’t know why it is that I decided to do an honors thesis. I think it was the Asian inside of me that was compelling me to do it. Darn my over-achieveing heritage! LOL, it’s been a blast writing this thesis though. It’s really helped me open my eyes to what’s out there and what still needs to be done in regards to both the communities. If it weren’t for the whole writing process, I think I’d enjoy this thesis a whole lot more though. Ah well, I guess that’s the cost of being an academic–you have to birth these damn papers, and let me tell you, it’s not an easy process!

    In other news, I’ve been going to the gym consistently, at least 3 times a week, but I’m still not gaining much weight. I’m hovering around the 122 lbs. mark, still quite far from my ideal weight of 140 lbs., but hopefully I’ll reach it by November. I don’t think going to the gym alone will get me to my ideal weight, perhaps protein shakes will help, ugh, but they’re just so nasty! Damn my high metabolism!

    So I didn’t realize this before, but apparently San Francisco, and specifically the Sunset District, has lots of mosquitoes! I totally thought that I had had the worst of it in Hong Kong, but apparently not. My room gets really hot during the day if I shut my windows, so I opened it up one night and the next day, I woke up with all these bites on me! Not cool! OMG, I sooooo hate mosquitoes! My freakin’ windows are those old-school windows that you have to turn a knob in order for it to open out, so I can’t put screens on them. Basically I can’t open the damn windows unless I have bug repellent on–how stupid is that?! Ugh, I think I just have to visit Home Depot and see what they have available. Hopefully some ingenious person has created something for these outdated windows!

    I got a rice cooker! YAY! I’m soooooo excited to finally be able to cook rice again! Holy shit, I had no idea just how much rice I ate. It’s like water to me, I must have it! I was dumb and left my really nifty little rice cooker down in SoCal, so I had to buy a new one because I live with two white people who hardly ever eat rice, and who I doubt even know how to cook rice, but yeah. It’s a big 10-cup rice cooker though, so I’m kinda jazzed about it. Rice party at my new place, haha! Ok, I’m being a dork, but whatever. I’ve got my rice, I’m happy!

  • …finally settling in…

    It’s late right now and I have work early tomorrow morning, so I’ll just keep this short and quick…

    I’m finally starting to settle into my new place, although I still have some reservations about my living situation and all, but I’ll delve into that at a later time. My bed is finally here thanks to the help of some very good friends, as is my computer desk, shoe racks, and so forth. Yes, things are starting to fall into place, except…

    THE FREAKIN’ DRYER FUCKED UP MY CLOTHES! OMG, I’M SOOOOOO IRRITATED WITH IT!!! There are these nasty metal stains all over my clothes and I’m hoping they’ll come out. Ugh! Just 2 pairs of my jeans alone cost more than a new dryer, so imagine a whole load of clothes getting ruined and you’d understand why I’m so pissed. ARGH! Stupid old ass dryer!

    Work’s cool, wish I had more days off, but ah well, gotta pay bills…

    Overall feeling: content and excited (I’ll elaborate later)

  • …I hate moving…

    So I took this weekend off so that I could move into my new place, but things haven’t exactly worked out as planned…

    I still don’t have my bed yet, nor my computer desk, nor my bookshelves, nor my shoe racks–the list goes on. I want to settle in already! ARGH!!!

    I hate moving…

  • …the sun is shining…

    …the birds are chirping, and yes, love is in the air…

    I’m in love with…the city of San Francisco. It’s such a quirky city, full of wonderful shops, and so many different types of people with so much character! Anyhow, if you didn’t already know, I’ll be moving to San Francisco soon. I’ve already found a place, but I can’t move in until July 1st. It’s a really cute place though, a three bedroom flat with two other roomies that are quite cool. One’s an Irish guy who came here less than ten years ago with his friend when his friend won the lottery back in Ireland, and the other is a hairstylist. They’re both quite cool, and I’m looking forward to the new living arrangement. The place is on 11th and Ortega in the inner Sunset, so yay, close to everything that’s worth exploring, hehe. I can’t wait to move in and get all settled in!!! I’m basically living out of a suitcase for the next two weeks though. Ruth was kind enough to let me crash at her place though, so I’m incredibly grateful for that, yay for wonderful friends!

    I had dinner with Viv last night. I hadn’t seen her in a long time. It was really good to see her again. We had dinner at Pluto’s and had an incredibly engaging conversation about race and privilege. It was sooooo nice to finally be able to talk to someone about that kind of stuff again. It’s been so long since I’ve been engaged in a conversation of that capacity, it was just really nice.

    I still can’t believe that I’m going to be living in the city, nor can I believe that I’m just going to be working full-time now. Wow, welcome to life…

  • …back…

    Wow, it’s been a while since I last posted here. Anyhow, I finally back now and I suppose I’m “ready” to dive into the real world, although this whole apartment hunting business is quite a pain in the arse. This entry’s gonna be short, as will some of my future entries until I can get settled down again. Here’s to trying to branch out my roots in a new pot of soil…

  • …all good things must come to an end…

    It’s started…

    On Monday, Jenny left to go back home. She’s the first one out of the close group of friends that I’ve made here to go back, and I can’t say that it felt the least bit good. On the contrary, it was quite painful…

    On Sunday, Don, Jenny, and I all went to Mongkok, where it all started. We spent our last time together doing everything we had done together this past semester. We had lunch at this nifty hibachi place, and then got Hui Lau Shan for the last time together. Afterwards, we hit the hawker stalls and I was actually able to use my Cantonese to get Don some fresh squid balls, while Jenny got her last order of fresh waffle balls. Jenny and I walked around Mongkok a little bit more to do some shopping after that, but I felt the minutes just winding down still. It was hard; with the passing of each minute, my heart grew heavier and heavier. I hate good byes. When we got back to campus, I just vegged in front of my computer, not quite sure what I wanted to do. I was hungry, but I just couldn’t bring myself to get out of my room to get some food. By the time I did though, it was 11pm and the stupid poolside cafe was already closed. Fortunately, Shaw’s tuck shop was open, so I walked down there to grab some dim sum and ramen with Jenny for the last time. We got to talk a little bit about what was in store for us in the future, then Don came down to join us. We chatted for another couple of minutes, then the mosquitoes forced us to go on our ways. I don’t know what happened, but as I gave Jenny a hug, I couldn’t help but start to cry. I tried to fight it with all my might and started to hurriedly walk back to my hostel so she wouldn’t see, but the sniffling wouldn’t stop. Shit, this was it, it was starting. It was the beginning of the end of it all. Don had asked me if I was going to go with him to take Jenny to the airport. I said I couldn’t. I’m a wimp, I can’t bear to see people leaving me…

    I was stupid and watched “Closer” that night…I cried some more. Love can be so cruel…

    Monday was a good day though. As I’ve said before, I’m a child of the weather. The sun was incredibly beautiful that day, and the rays took my whole being and lifted me from my depressing state. Nikie and I went to Shatin and I was able to take care of both my Singapore trip this coming weekend and the Beijing trip for me and Sis. We got an awesome deal, and I’m totally looking forward to it all. Afterwards, I went to Wanchai and picked up my passport, then headed down to Central to check out some custom suit tailors. While I was there, I picked up some pancit and purple sticky rice dessert from a Pilipino food stand. It was sooooooo good, I miss sweet sticky rice. Man, I love Hong Kong…

    I finally watched Charlie’s Angels: Full Throttle that night, then decided to watch Dodge Ball as well. It was good times…

    Today was awesome. Shirley and I had dim sum at Chung Chi, then Nikie and I decided to go to Kowloon Tong to get me a new hair cut, preferably more fobby, but it didn’t turn out to be the case. So as soon as we walk in there, we see this BEAUTIFUL man just standing a bit off to the side, he’s a stylist because he was wearing the white stylist’s shirt. So ok, the receptionist lady asked me if I wanted my regular stylist and I said that I wanted to try someone new–it was the BEST decision I had ever made. Nikie told me later that she was totally hoping, as was I, that I would request the beautiful man off to the side. They told us to go have a seat and wait, so Nikie and I started to flip through the catalog of stylists at this particular location. We stumbled upon Kenji and I told Nikie that that must be the guy’s name because they looked quite similar. Within a couple of minutes, they had seated us at the stylist’s station, and shortly after, Kenji came. I was drinking my hot tea and I nearly creamed in my pants when he came by and started to touch my hair, lol. I was soooooooo excited that he was going to be doing my hair. Anyhow, long story short, although he didn’t necessarily cut my hair the way I wanted it, it’s ok and he’s still beautiful. I told Nikie that my hair cut looks like it cost $30, and the other $150 was so I could look at Kenji, hehe. Yay for beautiful men! So after he finished my hair cut, Nikie and I asked him to take a picture with us–I’ll post it up as soon as Nikie sends me the pic, hurry up girl, hehe! The picture doesn’t do him justice though, he’s sooooooo much better in person. If, however, you don’t have any patience though, you can check him out at any Esprit Salon poster, he’s the hulkingly beautiful man named Kenji!!!

    I had to tutor English today. It was fun. The kids need to get more accustomed to us, but they were making progress today…

    A huge group of us went to dinner at Ruby Tuesdays tonight to say farewell to James. Argh, another good bye, another good friend gone. He wasn’t feeling too well, but he still came out, so that was good because then everyone got a chance to say good bye. I think I caught his cold though, I need to desperately fight this virus, I don’t want to be sick when I go to Singapore. Anyhow, after dinner, I went back with James to help him pack. Putting away all his stuff was kind of good for me; it totally prepared me for how I’ll feel when I’ll have to pack my stuff up a final time. I’m gonna miss you James. You were a great work-out buddy and eating buddy! I’m glad you’re returning to Berkeley, so we’ll still get to hang out…

    Aww geez, I’m glad I won’t be the last person leaving this place. I honestly don’t think I’d be able to handle seeing all of my friends leave me. Jenn asked if we were all really going to have a reunion in December. My answer: DAMN QUEER! I’d say “damn straight,” but we all know that nothing about me is straight, hehe.

  • …freedom…

    Ah yes, the sweet, sweet smell of freedom! I’m done with all of my finals now and, as Southwest would say, I’m free to move about the country!!!

    This past week has been absolutely hell for me. I had 3 finals, and very little sleep. I’m so glad that it’s all done with though. Nothing but smooth sailing from here on out, at least until I have to get back to the States that is…

    I’ve really enjoyed my time here thus far, and I’m really not looking forward to going back home. From the moment I decided to apply to come abroad more than a year ago, I had been counting down–counting down to the days when I’d be able to leave all the drama and shit back home behind me. Last semester, with all the heartaches and stress, the count down seemed to drag out utterly slow, but the wait has all been worth it. I know I’m not really living in reality right now, and that this is just one big vacation for me, but it has definitely been necessary–more for my sanity than for anything else…

    Someone told me last week that I had changed. I agree. I’ve cut out a lot of the bullshit out of my life, it’s just not necessary. Since coming to Asia, I’ve come to realize just who exactly my friends are, and more importantly, who aren’t. A lot of people pass in and out of our lives within any given day, if we try to maintain something meaningful with everyone, we’ll never really have any time to actually live life. I think I’ve finally started to make the distinction between an acquaintance and an actual friend now, and I’m happier because of it. Too much of my time has been spent trying to stay in touch with all of my “friends,” but life happens and we eventually grow apart. I won’t say that I’ll stop trying, or that I’ll stop being a friend, but I will choose who I invest my time and energy into more carefully…

    The days are dwindling…