September 18, 2005

• …my body finally caught up with me…

  Ugh, I’m sick! I knew it was bound to happen. Everyone at work was getting sick around me, and I just knew that someone’s nasty germs would finally penetrate my immune system and get me sick. So here I am, sitting in front of my computer on a Sunday afternoon blogging my life away as I pray for my cold to clear. I guess I’m kind of to blame for the weakening of my immune system too though. I’ve been working 7 days a week nonstop between my two jobs for gosh knows how long, so I guess it was just a matter of time before my body finally broke down. It’s nice to have the day off though. I finally get to rest and relax for the first time in a very long time. Once the new bid starts up in October, I should have just a little bit more breathing room, but then my two new jobs will kick into full swing at that point, so we’ll see what happens…

  Speaking of the new jobs, so I got two new jobs. I’m still going to keep the current ones that I have at Blue & Gold and CalPerfs, but in addition to those, I’ll also be working for the Greenlining Institute and RevMovement as a documentary video intern and a business developer/marketing analyst respectively. Yeah, it’ll be 60-80 hour work weeks, but I like the work that I’m doing and the people that I’m working with, so I’m ok with it all for now. Hopefully I won’t experience much of a burnout until much later, haha, although I am anticipating a burnout at one point or another…

  So while I’m excited about these new jobs, my family isn’t exactly thrilled with it all, especially my mom and my sister. They both are completely opposed to the idea of me even taking a year off from school to work full-time. They both think that I’ll get caught up in working and not want to go back to school whatsoever. I can understand why they’d jump to that conclusion, but that’s part of the reason why I decided to stay with my ticketing jobs, because they’re not my careers, so I won’t have any attachments to them and can have time to work on my applications for grad school/law school. I think that’s logical reasoning, no? My sister doesn’t seem to think so though. She continues to send me job postings for paralegal positions despite my insistence that I don’t want to be a paralegal–aka some lawyer’s bitch. She says I’m wasting my time not doing something more career oriented, that I should do something more related to law, especially business law. I don’t even know where she even got the idea that I wanted to do business law; I’ve never wanted to do business law. As a matter of fact, I hate it. Ugh, my family is just so damn irritating. They’ve never taken an interest in my life or the things I’ve been involved or interested in before, I don’t understand why they’re choosing to give their two cents now. They think they know what’s best for me, but they don’t even know me or what I want at all. Soooo freaking annoying!

  So, on to my mom. I know she loves me, but dear god, she has one hell of a way of showing it! She calls me every day, and if she doesn’t hear from me in a couple of days, she goes nuts and starts leaving messages on my voicemail like, “Where are you?” “Why haven’t you called home yet?” etc. It’s so frustrating because after a long day of work, I really just don’t feel like being nagged by someone. I hate naggers and whiners. PERIOD. One day, she called me at 8:30 in the morning and it was my day off, so I was hoping to sleep in. I didn’t make it to the phone in time, so I just let it go to voicemail and went back to sleep. I called her back later that afternoon and she was pissed that I hadn’t called her back immediately. She pulled the, “I could have been on my deathbed and you didn’t call back” line, soooooo LOW! I was fed up at that point and just wanted to end the conversation at that point, so I went into my repetitive “Bye mom, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye” mode until she finally hung up. She said she wouldn’t call again, and I asked her if she promised–bitchy and stupid move on my part, but I was just so damn frustrated with her. Ugh, I haven’t talked to either of them in a couple of days. Am I right? Should I continue to ignore them?

  Well, related to this, I’m really fed up with my flatmates. I think I mentioned in a previous entry that they are the epitome of White trash, but in case I didn’t, THEY ARE! They’re so fuckin’ inconsiderate and I simply cannot wait to get the fuck out of here. I swear, I think they’re bound to each other because of the drugs because there’s no other reason that I can think of that could possibly keep these two together. They don’t love each other because they fight uglier and dirtier than Tyson vs. Holyfield. It sure as hell isn’t for the sex because I don’t see how either of them can offer anything remotely close to hot passionate sex. They don’t cook for each other or anything, and they’re both dirty as heck, so yes, it must be the drugs. Ugh, I guess misery loves company. Unfortunately for me, I’m stuck in this whole whirlwind and I’m just clawing to get out. Thank goodness for Ruth and Denise, my second home in Berkeley. I’m finding myself spending more time there than I had anticipated, mainly because I just don’t want to deal with these fuckers anymore…

  …and now I’m physically sick on top of it all! ARRRRRGH!

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