April 17, 2005
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…freedom…
Ah yes, the sweet, sweet smell of freedom! I’m done with all of my finals now and, as Southwest would say, I’m free to move about the country!!!
This past week has been absolutely hell for me. I had 3 finals, and very little sleep. I’m so glad that it’s all done with though. Nothing but smooth sailing from here on out, at least until I have to get back to the States that is…
I’ve really enjoyed my time here thus far, and I’m really not looking forward to going back home. From the moment I decided to apply to come abroad more than a year ago, I had been counting down–counting down to the days when I’d be able to leave all the drama and shit back home behind me. Last semester, with all the heartaches and stress, the count down seemed to drag out utterly slow, but the wait has all been worth it. I know I’m not really living in reality right now, and that this is just one big vacation for me, but it has definitely been necessary–more for my sanity than for anything else…
Someone told me last week that I had changed. I agree. I’ve cut out a lot of the bullshit out of my life, it’s just not necessary. Since coming to Asia, I’ve come to realize just who exactly my friends are, and more importantly, who aren’t. A lot of people pass in and out of our lives within any given day, if we try to maintain something meaningful with everyone, we’ll never really have any time to actually live life. I think I’ve finally started to make the distinction between an acquaintance and an actual friend now, and I’m happier because of it. Too much of my time has been spent trying to stay in touch with all of my “friends,” but life happens and we eventually grow apart. I won’t say that I’ll stop trying, or that I’ll stop being a friend, but I will choose who I invest my time and energy into more carefully…
The days are dwindling…
