February 8, 2004
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…closure…
I talked to Chris tonight, for the first time in a very long time. He IM-ed me to talk about some emotional stuff he was going through. It started off awkward at first, as expected, but it became more comfortable after a while. I think it’s still emotionally and psychologically hard for me to talk to him as a “friend,” but I’m trying and I think I’m making real progress at getting on with my life. I think I’m at the scab phase of my recovery process now where talking about it still kind of makes me flinch, but I’m at least healing–not to mention growing…
In the course of our conversation, I was noticing just how similar he and I are: romantics in our own little ways, naive in others, etc. Being single again has really taken me by surprise and although I find myself with a 2 year relationship under my belt, I feel just as clueless about this whole dating thing as a newbie is to the whole scene. Although there’s a part of me that really wants to have that sense of having someone there for me–emotionally and physically, I think I really have to tread cautiously and be patient with everything. There have been some really great guys that have come into my life post-Chris, and I think I really need to take some time to calm down and explore and understand more of myself before I can begin to explore and understand them and any possibility of an “us”…
No Tengo Miedo
En todo de mi vida
La unica cosa que me da miedo
Es morir sin amor
Pero hoy
Ha realizado que esto no es posible
Porque ya tengo todo lo que quiero en mi vida
Tengo el amor…
De mis padres,
De mis amigos,
Y de ti…
Gracias por todo,
Ahora, no tengo miedo…© 2004 All Rights Reserved Ty J. Lim
